ada sorang ni, nama dia Farah. no, bukan Farah my bestfriend tu. this is my new friend here. not really new lah tapi. She's really bright. main2 dalam kelas, yet she can score high marks. MEchanical Engineering kat MMU kot weh. menangis punya susah kalah curtin weh. serious. 

that reminds me of, Me. the old me. i was like that, i can sleep or text while teachers teaches us. but still i manage to answer to all of her/his questions correctly. i was one of the bright student. i don't study. i don't revise, yet i still can get a good result. not a straight A's achiever tho. but yeah, kind of bright student, still. i can understand things easily. 

But things changed. I can no longer understand things easily. Not a bright student. Asyik fail je, which i never failed before, until i entered Curtin. Failure seems to be my Bestfriend since then. i wonder why. what happen to me? i'm not a high achiever anymore. 

I cried, i rebel, I cant take it. seriously. from a bright student to a, problematic, person on the earth ? that's really, sad. and really, i even think about killing my self. i know, but yeah. u want to walk in my shoes ? its size 6 and a half. No, it wont fit you coz its custom made for me. 

Then I realised, even our sight, our hearing, our health Allah can take it back. So does my intelligence. Maybe i used it wrongly, maybe i take everything for granted as i thought i'm a bright student. Maybe Allah want me to realised, everything is HIS, not mine at the first place. 

i need to change my self. i need to struggle, like any of my friends in high school, or in Curtin, or even here, in MMU. i need to start from scratch, start from zero and double my effort. 

Remember friends, everything in this world, even our life, our parents, our mind, our soul, is His. not ours. dont even think, even for a second, that anything we had, is genuinely ours. its all given from Him. just for a moment. he'll take it back sometime. there's always a reason why he take it back. but surely for our own good. 

Pray for me, pray for everyone in this world. :)

p/s : pardon my grammar, i'm still trying to improve here and there. please help me to improve my english :) thanks.